i can make it?

This world is unjust. JIAMING CAN RIDE VFR but not thomas and shaun!! :/

anyway, today a grumpy day for me. maybe it's the cough medicine, maybe it's just the fact that i should be in hongkong now running and having fun and omg preparing for the sea games.

but see. i'm still here in spore. because of my leg.

you know whenever an athlete gets this kinda shit, he's never going to return the same person. only one bright side for me is that my type of injury is not track related. more of contact sports and those that involves cutting and sudden change in direction.

you know the day before yest i just had the faintest of hope that i might make it back to the team in time.

i think it's possible. seriously.i've 11weeks to singapore open.but another 16weeks to nov.and seagames is not until december. so it'd really have to see the selection criteria. i hope the closing date is not so soon, and that mr hosni might just give me a chance to come back. it's a long shot.. or in army terms, f***ing long shot.

ok now it's been 5weeks since my accident, 4 weeks since surgery. another 2 weeks before i start running. but i can start on stationary cycling on monday for the next two weeks. that leaves me with 9weeks, 2 weeks of just jogging around, 2 weeks of more trg specific, 2 weeks of medium intensity workout. that leaves me 3 more weeks to power it up.

i think i can do it. i want to do it.

but you know. everyone is NOT expecting me to return. everyone is NOT expecting me to make it in time.

that casts doubts in me. i'm not doubting myself or my ability. it's the knee that i doubt.

do you think i can???