crushed.

so went to the doctor again to remove the stitches. funny how removal of stitches doesnt hurt. no really. 4/4 of my experiences didnt hurt. well you'll definitely be afraid and your mind plays tricks with your nerves, but it's pretty quick even if there's any pain at all.

oh yes, and same thing. the doctor said i should forget about running, at least competitively. i was worried about my ligaments, but it is not the ligaments that will affect my running. it's my lateral menicus.. you see, he removed about 50% of it. not good. it's your shock absorber.

but i'm not done yet. i have to try again. i have to try getting back to what i do. i have to try. and i have a goal. or 2 goals. to make it for the next 2 seagames. i think i can. either way, i'm not going to just leave track like that.

and my knee hurts again. the swell rather... go away.

honestly i'm broken inside. but i think i'm doing a good job not to show it.

on a ligther side, at least he says cycling is good.